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"I lost my virginity in a rape:" Demi Lovato reveals she was raped twice, and was "left for dead" the second time

"I lost my virginity in a rape:" Demi Lovato reveals she was raped twice, and was "left for dead" the second time

"Both times were textbook trauma re-enactments, and I really beat myself up for years," said the artist.

Trigger warning: The story contains details of sexual assault that might be distressing to some readers.

As a young child with a big voice, Demi Lovato tasted fame and success right from her teenage years. But while she cultivated fans across the world as a Disney star, she was also dealing with the trauma of not only being sexually assaulted more than once, but actually losing her virginity to an alleged rape.

Speaking in a new documentary series called, Demi Lovato: Dancing with the Devil, the singer recalled the painful experience and said, "When I was a teenager... I lost my virginity in a rape." Before the incident, Lovato was "hooking up" with the alleged rapist but told him she wasn't "ready" to go all the way. "I was part of that Disney crowd that publicly said they were waiting until marriage. I didn't have the romantic first time," Lovato said, as quoted by People. "That was not it for me—that sucked."

UNIVERSAL CITY, CA - SEPTEMBER 14: Singer Demi Lovato arrives at Disney's Concert of Hope benefiting the City of Hope at the Gibson Amphitheatre on September 14, 2008 in Universal City, California. (Photo by Kevin Winter/Getty Images)

Recalling the sexual assault, the singer said according to Variety, "We were hooking up but I said—hey, this is not going any farther, I’m a virgin, and I don’t want to lose it this way. And that didn’t matter to them, they did it anyways. And I internalized it and I told myself it was my fault because I still went in the room with him."

But that wasn't the end of it. A few years after the traumatic incident, Lovato had to endure another nightmarish assault where her attacker left her to die, but she was saved in the nick of time. On that horrifying night in July, 2018, the singer overdosed after being given heroin "laced with fentanyl," according to a friend, Sirah Mitchell. "I didn't just overdose. I was taken advantage of," Lovato said, according to People.



 

That night, the dealer "ended up getting her really high and leaving her for dead," Mitchell added.

Finally, the singer was found naked and unconscious in her LA home, and doctors revealed that she was minutes away from dying.

"When they found me, I was naked, blue. I was literally left for dead after he took advantage of me," Lovato shared. "When I woke up in the hospital, they asked if we had had consensual sex. There was one flash that I had of him on top of me. I saw that flash and I said yes. It wasn't until a month after the overdose that I realized, 'You weren't in any state of mind to make a consensual decision.'"



 

Looking back at both incidents, she said, "Both times were textbook trauma re-enactments, and I really beat myself up for years which is why I had a really hard time coming to terms with the fact it was a rape when it happened."

Now, at the age of 28, Lovato revealed in the documentary premiering on YouTube on March 23 that the overdose left her "with brain damage and I still feel the effects of that," according to BBC.

Bravely opening up to her fans, the child star turned musician said that she has learned a number of lessons from all that has happened in her life over the years. Letting her experiences come out through the four-part docuseries, the singer said in its trailer, as quoted by AP, "My purpose in putting this out is to help people who have been on the same path as I have. I wanted to set the record straight, and I wanted to reveal it all for my fans."



 

Vowing to continue making music that resonates with people, Lovato also reflected on how much she's grown, saying, "I look back and sometimes I get sad when I think of the pain that I had to endure to overcome what I have. I’m so proud of the person that I am today. One of the main reasons I’m coming forward is so I never have to live that life again."

 

Cover Images Source: Getty Images | Photos by (L) Carlos Alvarez and (R) Alberto E. Rodriguez

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