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For Marie Osmond, losing her son to suicide was the "hardest thing I've been through"

For Marie Osmond, losing her son to suicide was the "hardest thing I've been through"

Michael Blosil was only 18 when he plunged to his death on February 26, 2010. It was later revealed that he battled with depression as well.

Country music artist and talk show host Marie Osmond had just finished her performance at the Flamingo Las Vegas on February 26, 2010. After her show, she went up to her room to take a quick nap but was woken up by a call from her security guard back home. He told her some people were there to see her from the coroner's office. At that moment, she knew what the call was about. "I knew it was Mike," Osmond told Oprah, referring to her son Michael Blosil, the fourth-oldest child of her eight kids. He was also one of the five children she had adopted with her ex-husband. 

Blosil had reportedly jumped to his death from the eight floor of his apartment. The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising student was only 18 when he ended his life. The troubled teen had also left a note that said he had been struggling with depression for a long time. Remembering her beloved son, Osmond said, "[He] was probably the easiest child of all my kids. He was so fun. And cute. And darling. It wasn't until my son started using drugs that I saw him change."



 

At a young age of 12, Blosil was abusing drugs causing him to go in and out of rehab a lot. However, in 2009, the singer revealed that her son was finally clean. According to the toxicology report after Blosil's death, he was not under the influence of any drugs when he plunged to his death.

Osmond had no idea her son was battling such demons because he always told her that he had been doing well. In fact, Michael told her that he had "never been happier" in his life the last time they met. But, the day before his death, Blosil had called her sounding distressed. "It was the first time I heard him start to cry and say he was alone. That he had no friends. That he felt despair," revealed Osmond. "I told him: 'Mike, I'm going to be there Monday, and it's going to be okay.' But depression doesn't wait till Monday."

Osmond, being someone who's experienced depression herself, understood what her son would have gone through and why he made the decision to end his life. "He had made that decision, I guess. He loved his family, but ... the pain was too intense," she said. She noted that her age stopped her from any suicidal impulses but "children don't have that kind of age behind them... When they're 18, everything [seems] hopeless."



 

Two weeks after her son's death, she returned to her Las Vegas show with her brother, Donny Osmond. The emotional singer told the audience that the stage was her "safe place," reported ABC News. "The way Osmonds survive is we keep singing, and I know my son would want that," she told the audience at one of her performances.

"It doesn't scare me, like I guess it scares some people. And I knew that if I didn't get back on stage, that I may never get back on stage," she said. She also added that she was struggling to stay strong after her son's death. "I've been through some tough things in my life. This is probably the hardest thing I've been through," Osmond said.

When asked if there's something she could have done to save her child, she said, "I think there's always 'what ifs.' What if I had just put him on a plane and said come be with me, or gone there?" she asked. "I think if you life in 'what ifs' ... you stop living."



 



Cover Image Source: (L) David Buchan and (R) Brenda Chase Online USA, Inc.

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