"I thought our life together was perfect," Kidman said as she was blindsided by their divorce.
"All I can say is that I hope we are together when we are 80. I can’t say we will be, but I will be so devastated if we are not," Nicole Kidman said, while speaking to Talk in 2000, about her then-husband, Tom Cruise.
A few months after Kidman said those words, she was left blindsided when Cruise filed for divorce after a decade of marriage, according to E!
Fans of the couple were shocked to hear their rep announce in February 2001, that they were separating but Kidman was the one who most felt like the divorce came out of nowhere.
"I thought our life together was perfect. It took me a very long time to heal. It was a shock to my system," she previously told DuJour magazine, as quoted by Mirror.
When Cruise reportedly announced their divorce, he did not reveal the reason. He simply said, "Nicole knows why," but Kidman reportedly did not know what the reason was.
According to the Daily Mail, Kidman begged Cruise not to go through with the divorce and was ready to do whatever it takes to make their marriage work. After Cruise had filed for a divorce petition, court papers revealed that she was not given any prior notice and added that Cruise refused to even talk about the issues he felt.
While Cruise claimed that their marriage was over by December 2000, Kidman's account in the court papers told a different story. The actress revealed that in the month of December, just two months before Cruise filed for divorce, they had celebrated their 10th wedding anniversary in the company of their friends.
Not only were they "intimate" throughout that month but Kidman was also pregnant during that time. And this made it even more shocking for her when Cruise told her that she wanted a divorce a couple of months later.
While trying to reason with him, Kidman even suggested that they see a marriage counsellor together to make their relationship work but he was not ready to budge. Cruise stormed out as a response to her begging him not to break off their marriage.
To add to her misery, Kidman lost her baby. When she was reeling from the grief of her marriage falling apart, the then 33-year-old actress suffered a miscarriage. The court papers that included her account said, "During the balance of December and thereafter the parties were intimate and she became pregnant by petitioner but lost the baby through a miscarriage."
It took several months but their divorce was eventually finalized and at the time, both given shared custody of their adopted children, Bella and Connor.
Later, when Kidman opened up about her marriage to Cruise, she told Vanity Fair, "I was willing to give up everything... I was reeling with Tom and I loved it and I would have walked to the end of the earth. That meant giving up a lot of things that were very important to me."
During the marriage, there were even times when she wondered whether people saw her for who she was or saw her as an extension of the man she was married to. "I felt I didn’t deserve to be there in my own right, and so throughout I wasn’t there as Nicole—I was there as Tom’s wife," Kidman said. But over the years, she continued doing movies and proved that it was her talent, and nothing else, was what kept her in Hollywood.
Apart from becoming one of the most widely popular actresses of her generation, Nicole Kidman did eventually find her partner for life when she fell passionately in love with country singer, Keith Urban. She described him as "a wonderful, caring man" in her interview with DuJour magazine, as quoted by People.
She said, "My life changed" after meeting him. The two of them got married in 2006 and became parents to two daughters, Sunday Rose and Faith Margaret.
While speaking to Red magazine Kidman revealed that her second marriage was quite different from her first. "When you’re older, you’ve been through things, you’ve made mistakes," she said, as quoted by People. "So you come into it [a second marriage], still giddy, but wanting it to last. We always consider the 'us.' We say, 'Is this going to be good for us?’ It’s the simplest phrase, but it works."